last night, my friend LJ was here, we chatted about life and my condition and some funny things back in college and during the days that i can walk...and run. we ended talknig at 5am today, today, monday, everything's back to normal after sem break and the holidays. back to work for most and school for the youngsters.

i started my day with 100 reps of ankle pumps, 50 knee pumps and 50 reps of this exercise my sister told me to do, where i put weight on my knee, like putting a pillow below my leg and pressing them downwards. then i got up, peed, and went downstairs to fix myself strong coffee with anlene and log in to check messages. then i went to the neighbor's to buy marlboro, got back and did my daily rituals. that was at around 4p:30 pm.

while walking to the neighbors, there were passersby looking at me walking with the cruthches. i was thinking they maybe wondering "what the hell is this handsome disabled young man doin walking on the streets!" hehehehe. well, thats embarassing for me to be seen with these crutches as i walk but with my grace, i walked to my destination head high. What the heck do i care! i cant walk straight and soooo what! i'm still filled with beauty hehehehe! and so i bought what i needed and chatted a bit with "pay gilbert" about my condition and what's gonna happen...just in case.

the thoughts that crossed my mind as i walk to and from, i cannot control. they flash in my head so fast that all i could remember is how envy i am to those passers by biking, walking, driving their scooters while i ride on these yellow crutches! then it occured to me that i can no longer do the stuffs that i can do before, like: jump, dance wildly the way i use to, i cant run the way i do before and the funny thing that occured to me is that, i can no longer jump from the roof of our old house or here from the 2nd floor of the new house to the ground floor. that thing i do way back when im so bored.hehehe. and i cant climb the trees. and, since christmas is almost near, i cannot the decorate the house with christmas lights anymore. putting this christmas lights will need a ladder and all the strenght i could provide to install all light bulb around the house! hay... little things that i miss of doing.

anyway, im still hoping for the best. yeah i cant walk, my leg bone is still broken, but i'm still positive that God will provide me better things to experiece.